Excuse me while I cry.

One year ago today I was awake awaiting a labor induction, unable to sleep at the excitement of knowing my baby would be there in just a few hours.

That's not quite how it happened. After 16 + hours of labor I ended up in c-section. However, regardless of how he was born, my baby is about to turn 1.

Excuse me while I cry a bit :(

Rebooting My Brain

I need to work on myself, so bad. Lately I look at myself, in disgust, and the only thing I can say good is that I am carrying a life. I have to start working on myself now. I have to reboot my mind, so that once I have this baby I am ready to change my body.

The goal for my body is that i want to start working out full time, 6 days a week, starting September 1, 2012. By September 1, 2013 I want to be down to 150 pounds. If this pregnancy is like Demetri's weight-gain wise, that will be 70 pounds in a year. Averaging out to be about 2 pounds a week. That is doable, and I know it is.

What i plan to do now? Get in my water, work on my eating, and do mild workouts. About to make a meal plan. I can do this, I know I can.

Budgeting

Hello there! I am posting this as I try to fix my sleep schedule, and it is taking EVERYTHING for me not to fall asleep. Of course, I am trying to fix my sleep schedule to the overnights job, so it's even harder :(

I have had no appetite today, and while I've been starving, looking at food makes me nauseous. Hope it gets better by the time I wake up, because I am super hungry!

The first thing I need to do to take back my life is get caught up on bills,and stay that way. So, eventually I will be posting basic budget info, without giving full details.

Well, Hello there

Hello there. I am Caitlin, and I am a blog hopper. However, this won't have anything to do with past blogs. This is about me, and what I need to do for me.

I need to be organized, I need to love myself, I need to take care of my kids, I need to eat better, I need to get my life into order.

I am a college student, I am a mother, I work full time. I have a busy life. However, I am tired of using this as an excuse.

Right now losing weight is not on my mind. I am 12 weeks pregnant. I need to grow this baby as healthy as possible.

I know this intro is jumpy, but I am on pain meds, and wanted to just do a basic intro of what this blog is for. I will do a more detail one either tonight or tomorrow :)